Thursday, April 28, 2011

30 Weeks :)

I MADE IT TO 30 WEEKS AND PRAISING GOD.  I WILL SAY, AS I FEEL LIKE I SAY ALMOST EVERY DAY, THAT THE ONLY THING THAT HAS GOTTEN US TO THIS POINT IS PRAYER.  I CAN’T EVEN BEGIN TO THANK EVERYONE WHO IS DILIGENTLY PRAYING FOR US, AND FOR HENRY AND HARPER.  IT IS TRULY HUMBLING AND WE ARE GRATEFUL BEYOND WORDS.  THIS PAST WEEK HAS BEEN PARTICULARLY HARD ON ME FOR SOME REASON.  I THINK THE WEIGHT OF BEING HERE AND THE UNKNOWN OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN WITH OUR BABIES ONCE THEY ARE BORN HAS REALLY BEEN HEAVY ON MY HEART.  ALSO, MISSING EASTER SUNDAY WITH MY FAMILY AND CHURCH FAMILY WAS REALLY HARD, TOO.  I AM JUST CLINGING TO GOD’S PROMISES THAT HE IS IN TOTAL CONTROL OF WHATEVER IS TO COME.  MARK HAS BEEN MY ROCK THROUGH THIS WHOLE PROCESS.  I AM REALLY GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR HIM, MY MOM AND DAD, AND MY SWEET FRIENDS AND FAMILY WHO KEEP CALLING, TEXTING, AND EMAILING.  I APOLOGIZE IF YOU HAVE CALLED OR EMAILED AND HAVEN’T HEARD BACK FROM ME.  IT’S JUST BEEN A ROUGH WEEK.  PLUS, ANY TIME I HAVE A MOMENT IN THE ROOM, I FEEL LIKE I AM TRYING TO GET SOME REST.  NOT GETTING A WHOLE LOT OF THAT THESE DAYS.  MARK AND I JOKE THAT WE CAN SLEEP ONCE WE’RE HOME WITH THE BABIES!  (TOTALLY JOKING, BUT HONESTLY, THERE MAY BE A LITTLE TRUTH IN THAT STATEMENT)
 
 
FIRST, WE HAVE A HUGE PRAISE!  THEY CHECKED MY BLOOD PLATELETS TODAY, AND THEY HAVE GONE UP.  THEY ARE STILL LOWER THAN NORMAL, SO I STILL HAVE GESTATIONAL THROMBOCYTOPENIA, BUT THE FACT THAT THEY HAVE INCREASED INSTEAD OF DECREASED LOWERS THE RISKS THAT I COULD HAVE AT DELIVERY.  WE ARE SO THANKFUL FOR THAT. THE BABIES ARE STILL FIGHTING HARD TO MAKE IT AS LONG AS THEY CAN.  HARPER NOW WEIGHS 2 LBS 1 OZ, AND WE ARE JUST PRAISING GOD FOR THE LITTLE GROWTH THAT SHE’S SHOWN.  IT’S NOT WHAT WE HOPED FOR, BUT IT’S STILL GROWTH, AND WE ARE THANKFUL FOR THAT.  EVEN A TINY BIT OF GROWTH LETS US KNOW THAT ALTHOUGH THE FLOW OF BLOOD AND OXYGEN HAS BEEN RESTRICTED IN HER UMBILICAL CORD, SHE IS GETTING ENOUGH TO SUSTAIN GROWTH, SO THAT EASES OUR MINDS A LITTLE.  HENRY NOW WEIGHS 3 LBS 7 OZ!  WOO HOO!  AS FAR AS EVERYTHING ELSE, HIS CONDITION STILL REMAINS THE SAME.  WE WON’T REALLY KNOW ANYTHING MORE THAN WE ALREADY KNOW UNTIL HE IS BORN.  WHICH BRINGS ME TO THE BIGGEST UPDATE I HAVE TO GIVE.
THE DOCTORS HAVE DECIDED THAT IF EVERYTHING CONTINUES TO REMAIN STABLE, AND THE BABIES CAN MAKE IT TO 32 WEEKS, THEN THEY WILL SCHEDULE TO TAKE THEM AT 32 WEEKS.  I WILL BE 32 WEEKS MAY 11TH.  THEY HAVE EXPLAINED THEIR REASONING, AND WE WHOLEHEARTEDLY TRUST THEM.  LIKE I SAID IN OUR LAST UPDATE, GOD HAS BLESSED US IMMENSELY WITH THE DOCTORS AND STAFF HERE AT THE MED.  OUR MAIN DOCTOR, DR. SAMSON, HAS HONESTLY BECOME LIKE FAMILY TO MARK AND ME.  I BELIEVE HE HAS THE BEST INTEREST FOR OUR BABIES, SO IF HE SAYS IT’S TIME, I TOTALLY TRUST THAT IT’S TIME.  RIGHT NOW, WE ARE JUST PRAYING THAT HENRY AND HARPER CAN MAKE IT TO 32 WEEKS.  I WILL UPDATE THE BLOG THE SECOND I FIND OUT THE EXACT DATE.  I FEEL LIKE THE REAL BATTLE WILL BEGIN THAT DAY.  OUR BABIES HAVE A REALLY LONG ROAD AHEAD OF THEM, BUT WE BELIEVE THAT GOD HAS A GREAT BIG PLAN FOR BOTH OF THEM.  I AM GOING TO TRY AND SEE IF I CAN POST A PICTURE OF HENRY THAT THEY GAVE US LAST WEEK.  THEY WEREN’T ABLE TO GET ONE OF HARPER, BUT I KNOW SHE IS JUST AS SWEET.  THIS PICTURE FILLED MY HEART WITH SO MUCH JOY.  I CAN’T WAIT FOR THE DAY THAT I CAN HOLD THIS LITTLE FELLA.  THANK YOU ALL AGAIN FOR YOUR PRAYERS.  THEY MEAN THE WORLD TO US!  

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2 comments:

elise said...

B.J.

God is so AMAZING that you are still holding strong at 30 weeks, I know he will continue to BLESS these sweet babies everyday! I think about yall often and continuely pray for HIS healing hands to be placed upon Henry and Harper, they have already surpassed many goals. So I will continue you ask for a few more! You and Mark are so strong and your Prayers and Praises to God will be heard!

In Christ,

Elise Jordan Choate

Teresa said...

I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for your sweet family. I am not sure if you remember me from Lawndale or not, but I have been keeping up with you through Krista and your blogspot. Teresa Gregory